Thursday, December 12, 2013
Vacation, Family Pictures
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Vacation, Mantua (Pt. 2)
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Vacation, Mantua (Pt 1)
Monday, December 9, 2013
Something New
We interrupt this travelogue to bring you a small update.
Over the weekend, I was released from my calling of Primary President. When my bishop pulled me aside, he told me that I had been the counselor to a previous president for 18 months, and the president for 3 years 3 months (he is the kinda guys who likes numbers). So, I had been doing much of the same thing for almost 5 years. 5 years is a long time. In my case that is 2 pregnancies and 2 babies and 2 nursery introductions. It is 4 secretaries (I think). It is 2 presidents (the previous one, and me). It is 4 first counselors (my poor second counselor was in with the previous presidency with me, and I never let her go). I don't think I could count the primary teachers, cub scout leaders, nursery workers, and musical callings, because we live in a military ward, with constant comings and goings.
I have been feeling a bit "tired" for a few months. A bit of "just going through the motions". Don't get me wrong, we still had fabulous activities, great food, and things were well organized and taken care of. But it wasn't quite the same. I began "hinting" and joking to the bishopric that it was about time to release me. I began to jokingly suggest names for my replacement. I told my counselors that they would be next. I never stopped being faithful, but I kinda felt like I had, if not stopped, at least slowed significantly in my spiritual growth in that calling. I was in the burn out stage.
Saturday night we had our Ward Christmas Party, and the Primary (that's me) had volunteered to be in charge of it. There were hams and potatoes and desserts galore. There was a talent show populated by ward members (who did an excellent job), and a special visit from someone we imported all the way from the North Pole. As we chased people out and began to put tables and chairs away, I felt a huge let down. The party was over. The program was over. I was on cruise for the rest of the year. At one point, the counselor in the bishopric was chatting with me as we were putting things away and said "Well, at least you went out with a bang!" I must have looked perplexed, because he said "You don't know you are getting released?" I had thought that I hoped it was coming, but I hadn't known. When I spoke with him, I was happy. Relieved. Done.
A little while later, as we were mostly done cleaning, the bishop asked me to speak with him. We went into his office where he said, "Sister, I appreciate all you have done over the last few years. But it is time for you to be released." Oddly enough, when it was official and real, I did not have the same reaction at all. My breath caught in my throat, and my eyes welled up, and it was all I could do not to sob right there in front of him. Which is kind of a big deal for me. I am not a crier. While I did feel a profound relief to no longer have such a huge burden of responsibility, what I mostly felt was sadness. I am sure some of it is hormonally related. I am sure some of it is fear of change. But, mostly I think it was sadness of missing the same responsibility I no longer thought I wanted, as well as missing the lovely ladies I worked with, and the children whose spirits I had the opportunity of learning and growing from.
It must have deeply affected me since I am still thinking about it, and wanting to share my feelings. And not even in a sarcastic way! I don't know what the future will bring. I know what the past held, and I know how much it has helped me grow in so many ways. I guess Heavenly Fathers really does know what we need, if we can be patient, we can maybe understand some of his motivations as well.
So, I will miss the kids. I will miss the teachers. I will miss enlightening and enjoying and sharing. I don't think I will miss all the meetings, or the behind the scenes sets up or the always feeling the need to be the responsible and accountable one. It is such a bittersweet looking forward to the future. Who knows what it will bring?
Wish me luck!
Vacation, The Beginning
PS - Shout out to my good friend Bucket, whose birthday is today! Happy Birthday BUCKET!




































